I am sitting here, rain pouring, burning my lavender candle, and listening to calm music. This year already has been so fast paced, I feel like I haven't had much time to sit and think about what is really going on. Do you ever feel that life is moving so fast, that you are just going through the motions? Well that is how I have felt the past few days. I am finally at home, on my day off taking everything in. I am very intuitive, to the fact where I truly believe in my gut instincts - they have not failed me once. I am dedicating this post to hopefully relate to some of you. When you get to know someone on a deeper level, and I mean the kind of deep level where you know what makes them happy, what makes them sad, what keeps them up at night, what their goals and dreams are, who they are when no one is around; that level of knowing someone is special. These connections are real, because you form a bond with someone and sometimes either their words can help you, or your words can help them. With that said, this is what I am here to do. Help others, because more than once, you all have helped me in some way.
I have not written a post in a while, mainly because I don't just want to write because I have to. I don’t schedule when I need to write, maybe I should? Maybe I shouldn’t? I am going to write when I feel something, and hopefully help others in that sort of way. My thoughts are my own, you may agree or disagree, but that does not change who I am. So here I am, vulnerable, writing, and hoping to connect with you.
Whether you are a believer or not, this post is not written to persuade you in any way, but hear me out if you’d like. I believe in God, and I truly believe that we receive signs every day. Some may think they are a coincidence, some may feel differently. I, for one, believe in the signs and truly take them to heart. Sometimes we become so busy that we skip over the signs, and may not see them as clearly. It happens. Some feel so overwhelmingly beautiful to the fact where out of no where you may cry.. at least I did.
Yesterday morning I was praying to God, asking for guidance, making sure I was on the right path. I am probably my biggest critic, and I tend to put myself down at times. We are human, I’m sure we have all done that at one point in our lives. I had auditioned for a day club, and have been praying for a call back. Whether I get it or not, it does not break me, but of course I want it. My first sign was that I logged on Instagram moments after praying, and a sponsored ad of an Angel painting was on there. The caption stated “Angel Watching Over You.” Right then I thought, wow, and I prayed to God again, and said “thank you, I love you.”
Fast forward to driving to work, in the rain, CES in town so there is traffic, etc. I was the first car waiting at the red light to make a left turn, and when it turned green, I didn't go right away. Instead, my gut told me to wait a second. Good thing I did, because a car ran a red light, and I would have been hit if I put my foot on the gas pedal right away.
Fast forward to being at work, and serving my first guests their beverages. After ten minutes of being on the clock, I spoke to my coworker about what had happened driving in to work. She told me that has happened to her, and felt it is a blessing in disguise. She told me He was watching over me. Well, seconds after she said that, I looked at my tip cup, and there was a dollar bill that stood out to me. First thing I read was “Jesus” and immediately I thought, “what?” After reading the whole note, it stated “Jesus love you, he called you.” I immediately burst in to tears, you know the kind of overwhelming beautiful feeling I mentioned above? Yeah, that is what I felt. I knew I was being watched over, I knew He answered my prayer. She gave me a hug, and told me that was such a beautiful sign, and I took it all in, and prayed again, thanking Him.
Now, I realize we all are connected in every way. Whether you meet someone and know them for 10 minutes, or 10 years, we are all put in each other’s lives for a reason. We never know what our words or actions mean to people. Sometimes the things we pray about get answered through people, through tangible items, through gut feelings. I believe God is always listening and knows our heart better than we do. With all that said, take the time today to really dig deeper to who you are. Who are you when no one is around? What worries you? What makes you sad? What makes you happy? What do you want for your life? Have you received miracles? I bet you have before, whether you noticed them or not. These things happen all the time, as long as you recognize and believe in them.
What happened to me yesterday, is just one of the many miracles and signs I have received from God. This is my story, whats yours?
Thanks for reading xo